WHAT THE FORK???????

I seriously don’t know what has gotten into me.  Here I am, a perfectly healthy 20-year-old, and suddenly everything is WRONG.  I have a forkin’ horrible cold, I feel like puking, and I suddenly find myself putting on makeup for a day nosing around in the library!

If you know me at all, I do not wear makeup that often.  Honestly, it’s more of a burden than some of the things women will do to keep themselves looking good.  I just simply cannot fathom putting on makeup every.  Single.  Day.

I put such a freakin’ great face on when I’m updating my Facebook or Myspace, but here I’ve gotta be honest.  Most of my friends who read this know me well enough to read between the lines.  Even when my wording indicates happiness beyond death.

Nobody’s hiring, so I’m still on the lookout for a new job.

Love flew by.

I’m lonely as hell.

Those are just a few of my complaints, guys.  I can’t say they’re the most awful things in the world, because I could be an AIDS stricken, starving orphan in some remote African village, and I’m not.  I can get myself around, pay for things myself (for the most part), socialize with friends, and I am pretty damn well fed.

There’s just got to be something else I can do to make myself feel more worth…

Someday, I know I will find that something else, it’ll cross my path.  I know far more about taking opportunities now than I used to, so if I find something I recognize as something that’s going to change my life, hell, I’ll take advantage.  I just have to get over this poor me bullshit that’s been knocking around in my skull.

The only friend I’ve been connecting with as much anymore is still in high school, and I love him to death, he’s my best friend, and we’ve been through a lot of crap together.  I’m picking him up after school’s done for him today.  It’ll be good to hang out with someone and get my mind off this stupid poor me stage.

At least I’m back to school next week!

Now I’m off to find a book to learn from.  Something I can actually use.  How could I waste my time reading bullshit that you don’t learn from?  I mean, sure, fiction is fine in its own time and place, but to be honest, I need history.

So here I go – I’m off to find history.

Instant Relief.

Okey dokey.  If any of you read my LiveJournal, I am going to link to this post - so that you can at least know the background of this latest entry.  Did you read the post?  OK, good.  Because otherwise, you won’t understand the update.  SO THE UPDATE IS:  Just friends.  Which is okay.  Because at least I got his number.  :)  I mean, I’ll be honest.  I really, really wanted to date him.  REALLY.  I fell so far down the Love Well that I ended up half-drowned.  But it’s all good.  Just friends is good.  Seriously.  I mean, why waste a perfectly good friendship by frenching the guy?  Anyway, I spoke to him at length, and I found that I enjoy just casually throwing words around…  So that’s a good thing, I suppose.

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How come every time you come around…

My mind is a total mess at the moment.  I can’t seem to think straight.  I’ve made the decision to go back to school – two classes, in the field I’m actually interested in, so it won’t be too overwhelming.  And yeah, I am looking for another job.  I think I’d do well nannying.  Anyone interested in hiring a nanny with lots of experience withs mall children? 

I figured that, since I have so much time to blog and so much time to do things online, that it was finally time to do some stuff that I’ve been wanting to do.

Firstly, a Book of Shadows – online.  I’ve already prepared a few posts, but now it’s time to figure out if WordPress would be the place to host this OBOS.

Also, my new website (and hopefully the only one I’ll run anymore on Angelfire) is being plotted and planned at this very moment.  It’s going to be one of those hodgepodge affairs.  You know the kind.  There will be religion stuff and blog links and friend links and videos and audio etc. etc. etc.

Those of you keeping track of me on Facebook, prepare for a scourge of the profile.  I have wayyyy too many apps on there right now, so I decided that as soon as I have the time, I’m going to meticulously clean up.  And I might get rid of some photo albums that seem to be junking things up.

Myspace people, I’m really sorry for my lack of updates.  I don’t get on Myspace as much as I do Facebook, and I can’t update the Myspace blog as much as I do this blog.

Oh and I do have a quick shout-out to post:  WHISKY MY DARLING.  I love you and I miss you and I’m putting together your Supernatural package (including some issues of SUPERNATURAL MAGAZINE!!), and hon, you need to update your blog!!!!!