Monthly Archives: May 2008

Sorry for the lack of updates but we had the long weekend…  I wasn’t able to get to a computer…  But things are good so far and for lack of any updates I’ll just label this a quickie!!!  :)

*drumroll*

Come one come ALL to the amazing ESPLODY BRAIN CIRCUS!!!!

Come watch as we roam the streets on tired feet…

Come watch as we lay in the park and talk about the future…

Come watch as we laugh at our friends for getting jaywalking tickets…

Come watch as the Circus arrives…  And ESHPLODES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah…  That’s what it’s all about in here…

I’ll be totally truthful, everyone.  My life, though it has changed in a thousand different ways, is currently being enriched by so many cultures and difficulties!  I am blessed, to be honest.  The Goddess has seen fit to gift me with a revelation:  I do not need to be constantly connected, I just need to be with those who love me and will care for me.  Given:  I’m not at home with my parents anymore, but right now I need my man, and I love him for the way he takes care of me.  Oh yes, I’m taking care of him as well, but seeing as how he knows how to live this way, I follow his lead.  I have a crew.  I’ve adopted a sister and a few nieces, I’ve made some friends and I’ve gained some contacts.  I have what I need and I know where to find other things I need.  I walk, I take the bus if needed.  I’m free.

I know that there’s nothing like having a roof over your head but the truth is simply that this time of the year, spring crossing over to summer, is the time I feel my best, and being outside is simply heaven to me.  My Blade is an outdoorsman and enjoys being in the grass, so the inner city parks in our area are definitely perfect for him and for me.  We love watching the ducks and swans skim over the glassy surface of the little river…  There’s nothing like this feeling of being fully and totally free…  We don’t need much money for now…

So basically, I’m well out here, and there’s nothing to worry about.  I was glad to know that there are people out here who understand and will help…  And I am appreciative.

Love you all.

Things are certainly different in my world, folks…  I’m tired and my feet hurt from walking.  My folks found out about him being here and asked me to choose between virtual house arrest with no car, no computer, etc., and a shelter with him.  I chose the shelter, and to be completely honest, I’m glad I did.

This doesn’t mean I’ll be slacking from work.  My new job is going to have to understand that I simply won’t be able to get there – while my current job has been agreeing to give me more hours since I can simply walk there from the shelter.

It’s not all bad, don’t worry – the library I’m in is a close walk and I have company, and I’ve made friends with all the women in my room, and we do have cash (which yes, we do know how to be frugal with), and we do have each other.  The shelter provides food and bedding and showers, etc.

Well, I must be going now before I lose this post – love to everyone, and yes I’ll be updating soon as possible.

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I keep getting Facebook notifications of invites to certain “events,” some stranger than others.  Apparently there are a whole load of “new holidays” that I am currently aware of…  Including Friday – which is “Be Sexually Inappropriate With Your Friends Day.”  Seeing as how I already AM sexually inappropriate with all my friends, this will be a snap to make it over-the-top.

And then there’s “Talk Like A Pirate Day” and “Pee In Public Day” (I’m not kidding)!

…AAAAAAAAAARGH – I’m totally wasting my time with this stuff…  Sorry if I destroyed your brain cells with this stuff…

I’m a little appalled by myself, if I have to be honest…  I have been signing up for every sort of gadget imaginable for Myspace, Facebook, and blog tools…  And I think I’m overloading my laptop!  So far now I have Twitter (addictive), Meez (ADDICTIVE!!), Meebo, Snapvine, Flickr, Project Playlist, FaceInHole, BattleKnight (which I am admittedly still extremely new to), and Copernicus…  And I know I’ll be adding more.  Every single social community I belong to online is packed with applications…  Facebook has things like horoscopes and quizzes, and Myspace has a truth box I’m addicted to…

Oh, gah!  I always told myself I wouldn’t bother getting addicted but since we got my laptop I’ve been…  GLUED to the screen!!!!

Yeah!

Honestly, I do not know why people don’t think before they speak.  I do my best to make my words into a statement that won’t hurt someone’s feelings, and I do not know why others do not do the same.  This can be tricky sometimes, but prudence, folks!!!  What folks don’t understand is that I am a person, no matter my preference or faith, and I’m tired of being labeled.  It does not feel good to have people hurling words at me that are frightfully shortsighted and hurtful.  Everyone’s had this happen at some point or another in their lives, and those of us who have multiple parts of their life be “abnormal” for certain reasons only the current social norms can control or dictate are bound to get burned, which is why I admire blogs like SexAbility and Alterophobia for their positivity and their work in getting these “isms” abolished.

I have certain things I say to people when they attack me for my beliefs or looks, and here are a few.

On my weight…

Them:  ”Boy, you could certainly stand to lose a few pounds, couldn’t you?”

Me:  *insert raised eyebrow and sarcasm*  ”You could stand to lose your closedminded rudeness, now couldn’t you?”

On my bisexuality, if it comes up…

Them:  ”Isn’t wanting both worlds selfish?”

Me:  ”Oh certainly, it’s selfish…  If it’s selfish to enjoy love, yes it’s selfish!”

On my faith…

Them:  *placing hands on my shoulders*  ”Have you found Jesus?!”

Me:  *staring them in the eye, not flinching, straight face*  ”Oh Goddess Almighty, do you mean to tell me that you people have lost your Lord and Saviour…  Again?!?!  What are we going to do with you?”

As you can see, my soul was removed to make room for all this sarcasm…  And generally, when it comes to sensitive topics, people are generally like slinkies…  Basically useless but it’s so much fun to watch them fall down the stairs.  I may be cruel in saying this, but words can be like daggers when properly placed and spoken.  I’m always terrified I’ll offend someone; I wish others would extend me this courtesy.